Sore throat alert.
Alright. I already made up my mind. I’ll be staying in this friggin’ company until second week of December, after I get my bonus. Then, I’ll stay at home to rest for a month. While on break, I’ll hit the gym to lose some weight. After I remove my braces, I’ll apply in some airline companies and try my luck there.
I lost the motivation to grow in the BPO industry so I stopped caring whether I’d get fired or whatever. I just wanted to rest.
Speaking of rest, I had a five-day off from work. It started last Wednesday, after the band practice for Remyx. I didn’t really plan for it, but like what I’ve said, I lost the motivation already, so other than money, there’s no reason for me to go to work. Sigh.
Monday jogging, 6:30 am: Lloyd was a bit upset because we’re late. Actually, I wasn’t late; it was his sister.
I got to know Lloyd and Ria more. They’re both cool, but I’m more attached to Lloyd, ’cause we clicked right away by confiding his secrets with me (girl problems). Plus, he’s funny and was never scared to tell me what he thinks about whatever I say.
I wasn’t sure how it happened, but we found ourselves talking about guys and cheesy relationship topics. When Tonet out of earshot, Ria told me that she finds Rjo hot. She’s like, “He’s so hot! I like his body…” Upon hearing that from her, I was totally shocked. When you look at her, she seemed innocent and shy.
“How did you know that he has a great body,” I asked her. Well, I shouldn’t have to ask that because it shows (plus I checked his Facebook account and saw a topless picture of him) but I just need verification. Haha.
“He took off his shirt after the basketball game, when we watched, one time,” she answered, without hesitation. Okay, so she actually checked him out. “Not knowing that he and Ate Tonet were an item, I told her what I thought of him,” she continued. We giggled. Normally, I’d be shattered and depressed if I know that the guy I have my eyes on has his eyes on someone else, but I wasn’t. I was totally happy for Tonet, and I’m saying this from the bottom of my heart. She’s a great girl. In my standard of beauty, I could give her 7 out of ten. I’d rather lose Rjo (not that I’m wishing or expecting that end up with him) to Tonet than to someone else. Kidding!
After jogging, my friends went to my house to have breakfast.
We watched Shutter Island, but didn’t finish it. We just talked until one o’clock in the afternoon. Lloyd fell asleep on the couch.
We talked about our dreams, as in literally. I think I’ve shared my dreams about Matt and Rjo.
The Matty Dream
I was walking somewhere very gray and windy. Sands were getting on my feet, so I thought that I was on a beach, walking on the shore.
I was wearing mg blue baby doll dress and hair was blown in my face.
The scene was very calm and serene. Suddenly, an arm wrapped me around my neck and panic rose on my chest. It wasn’t like the person who owns the arm tried to hurt me or something; it was more likely an affection hug from behind.
I turned to see who the person was, and when I turned around, I felt relieved to see who it was and I said, “Matt…. Matty…” Matt smiled. He looked like Shia La Beouf, but more stubbly and handsome. He said something to me and his accent was neither American nor Filipino. It’s not even British, but it’s something that I didn’t understand, but somewhat felt what he meant.
Matty put his arm around my shoulders and wrapped mine in his waist. We started walking, kicking the sand, the wind blowing the hair on my face.
It was a really nice and warm dream. But who the heck is Matt?
The Rjo Dream
Well, this is more realistic than The Matty Dream.
I just remembered sitting beside Rjo after playing Peewee, with my chin on my hands. I dozed off (in my dream), and my right hand fell on Rjo’s lap. He got mad and punched me in the face.
I was like, “Whoa! Dude, what did I do to you?”
Then, I remember him having an outburst, telling everyone that he hated me because I was always teasing him, calling him “Negro” and other stuff.
I woke up, very mad at him, and found out that it was dream. In real life, I will never tease him about his skin color because it’s the best skin color i that I’ve ever seen in a guy.
Ria, Kash and Tonet laughed at it. They thought it’s really funny. I think it’s creepy. I don’t want Rjo to hate me.
“You’re having dreams about him because you’re probably thinking a lot about him subconsciously,”suggested Kash. I gave her the evil glare, she didn’t seem to get it.
“Could you say it a bit louder? I don’t think that Ria and Tonet heard what you said.”
I know Tonet and Rjo were sharing something special between them, and I hate to ruin that. Not that Rjo will take a second look at me or something.
Tonet started singing “Black and yellow, black and yellow,” and told us the story behind it. She said she started teasing Rjo about it when he showed up at practice wearing a ridiculous yellow shirt that high-lighted his dark skin.
She admitted that he actually looked great on that yellow shirt; she just teased her because he was so insecure about his skin color.
If you ask me, Tonet’s the one who should be punched by Arjo in a dream, not me.
Remyx Band Practice:
I thought I could nail Through It All that easy, ’cause I’ve done song for a hundred of times already. I guess my problem was the tempo. Argh.
The devotion was great. I shared about John 1:40-42, wherein Andrew found Simon and brought him to Jesus. The moral of the story was before we invite other people to come to church, we should bring our families first, because it will be considered “hypocrisy” if we’re doing great tasks for the church, but poor at house chores.
Rjo shared something about keeping our grudges to ourselves. I think he gave out things not to do when you’re holding a grudge to someone, which I find really impressive for a seventeen year old boy.
1.) If you’re mad at someone, don’t tell people about it. People who listen to you will tend to get biased because they’re only hearing your side, and therefore, will sympathize with you.
2.) If you’re mad at someone, you better keep quiet, because if you don’t, you’ll just call the person names, or worse, insult the person, which you’ll regret later on.
3.) If someone tells you that he or she is mad at one person, and badmouthing that person in front you, don’t encourage the person by doing the same thing.
4.) Don’t be a bully; if you’re strong, defend the weak instead. If you’re not that strong, stand up for the weak.
5.) If you’re being bullied, just forgive, though you can’t forget.
He said some stuff about feeling bad towards those people who bullied him before, and how he forgave him, though it’s so obvious that he still had hatred towards them because of the way he was telling us about. I caught Kash’s eyes; she smiled at me. I swear I didn’t know what she meant with her smile.
Tonet started singing “Black and yellow, black and yellow,” again, so I nudged her and reminded her of the Rjo dream. She burst into small, supressed giggles. The others were curious and started asking her about what’s she’s laughing at, but she didn’t tell them. I knew that I could trust her that time.
Instead of stopping to tease Rjo, Janine even teased him. She called him, “Tall, dark and happy,” but Rjo didn’t look offended.
So, okay, I didn’t go to work. I hung out with Kash at our home after Ella’s birthday party. We agreed to go jogging the next day with Tonet and the Panerios.
Thursday jogging, 4 am: I sent a text to everyone to wake them up. Ria replied, “Go go go.” What the heck would that supposed to mean? I brainstormed for a couple of minutes to decode her secret message, but I really couldn’t. I got up, put on my v-ball shorts and went to Kash’s. She just woke up too. I told her about Ria’s text, and she told me not to sweat it, ’cause Ria’s probably “dream-texting”. Hmm, fair enough.
We’re a bit earlier that the other day, and this time, we’ve got new people. Charm, from the New Breeds and Lloyd’s parents came with us.
We had a great time working out, and we got to know each other more. We’re on our way back home when Ria’s mom blurted out, “Do you guys know that Weinber is courting my daughter?” Hahahaha. Well, I kind of knew it, because I saw how sweet they were to each other when we had a movie marathon at our house (and I got into trouble because I allowed them to be alone with each other for a couple of minutes).
Kash played it cool. She said, “Ah, we knew it. We just don’t talk or think about it much, because…. so what?” I so love her. We stared at Ria for few minutes, and she looked like she’s melting from shame. Ah…. mothers. Tsk tsk tsk.
Lloyd, on the other hand, was very secretive to his mother, but nonetheless shared some of his secrets to me. He recorded one of his many long conversations with his “love” and let me listen to it while we’re cooling down. I wasn’t too excited to hear it, but for my new found friend’s sake, I pretended that I was. I was bit curious too, by the way. I was shocked to know who the girl was. It was Weinber’s youngest sister (name withheld upon nobody’s request, but I think I wrote about her before). At their young age, they’re making plans for college, and then marriage. These kids think that marriage life is THAT easy. But at least, they’re thinking of their future together. I totally commend Lloyd for being true to his intentions (whilst some guys just plan to fool around and sleep with many girls as possible when they grow up). Whenever I look at Lloyd, he’s was absent-mindedly staring through the thin air, smiling. I guess he’s feeling warm and fuzzy…. awww.
We had breakfast in the cheap “karinderia” along La Joya, Ria’s mother’s treat. We didn’t really care if it’s cheap or dirty; as long as we’re together, it’s totally fine with us.
Tonet asked me, “Do you like someone from church?”
“Yup.” I answered.
Her eyes widened. “Who?!” She demanded. “Tell me!”
Ria and Kash smiled and looked at me knowingly. It was time for a little guessing game.
“You guess,” I told her.
So, she started giving out names, including her Kuya Chris and Rjo, but I wasn’t ready to tell her yet, so I denied it. But Kash gave it away. Tonet mentioned Rjo’s name for the second time, and then Kash twitched.
“Aha!” She exclaimed. She laughed out loud at that. Kash guiltily apologized for giving me away.
“Don’t you know about us?” Tonet asked.
“Well, I do…”
“And?”
“And nothing…” She’s probably expecting me to tell her that I’ll be stealing the guy away from him and to watch out. Ew. No way. Well, I might consider that if the guy’s a lil bit older… no, I take it back. Karma acts fast. It’s a bad thing to do.
I explained to her why I like her “sweetheart”, and she’s totally fine with it. That’s one hell of a secure girl. I so love her!
Here’s the weird thing: though we both know we like the same guy, we grew closer than ever. Just like Betty and Veronica.
After breakfast, we went home to change from our sweaty sport gears and went to Ria’s house. Lloyd, Tonet and I took turns in playing chess (I only lost once to Lloyd, Tonet was pretty impressed with me and asked if I can teach her, which I agreed into if she teaches me the scales in guitar) while Ria and Kash took turns in playing my violin.
We watched Josh Groban’s Awake Live Tour Concert on DVD. Thanks to me, Lucia Micarelli had a new fan (Tonet). We all loved Josh. 
We all went home after lunch to prepare for Remyx.
I went to bed around two o’clock in the afternoon to recharge my energy. I’ll be needing it for this week’s Remyx.
Zzzzzzz.
Mother turned of the AC in my room. “Ma!” I protested. She told me that Kash was calling me non-stop because of Remyx. Shay! I almost missed Remyx. I changed into my gray baby doll dress, matched it with a pair of black tights and gray Skechers doll shoes. I didn’t have time take a shower, so my hair’s all messed up and everything. I just put on a headband to cover up the “bedroom hair”.
I wasn’t that late, because I saw Rjo setting up his amps. As usual, he just looked at me and didn’t say anything.
It was a very successful Remyx (if you don’t count the fact that Tonet’s solo was messed up because three of her guitar strings snapped and my keyboard lost its power at the middle of great piano riff). I could’ve been happier, if only I had invites. Sigh.
After Remyx, the four of us (Ria, Kash, Tonet and I) huddled behind Rjo’s car. We’re all looking at each other, smiling. Though we weren’t saying anything at all, I’m sure, we’re all thinking about the secrets we’ve shared for the last couple of days. It’s just like Pretty Little Liars. Haha.
Rjo showed up, and we went all giggly and everything. “Rjo!” He looked at us like he found us acting a little weird and not that normal, but didn’t really mind, ’cause he didn’t go away. I said goodbye to everyone because Kash and I were going to the hospital (I need to get a medcert because I’ve been absent for three days already), and Rjo asked, “Where are you going?” The way he asked was a major turn off. I felt like a mom to him.
“We’re going to the hospital, little boy,” I answered.
“Can I go?”
“Nope. You won’t like it there.”
“Okay fine, you’re always leaving me behind…” and he pretended to cry. If I’m a bit younger, I would’ve find the little boy act cute.
Not that I didn’t want him to come with us, but it’s just weird.
“I’m so sorry, you can’t really come. The place we’re going is not for kids,” I told him. Then, he went back to normal and said, “Okay. We have a basketball game later, please be there to watch and support.” Sure, baby! Kidding.
We promised to watch their game and he let us go. The hospital was not that far, so we walked from church. The appointment wasn’t that exciting. No cute nurses were around. Haha.
After my appointment, we went to the Bea basketball to watch the game. They weren’t there, so we just went home. We found out later on that they changed venues. Pssh.
Kash and I just went home and hung out in our living room. Like usual, we talked about cheesy stuff. I find it really weird that I’m drawn to conversations about relationships, which I find really cheesy before. After the “girl talk”, we watched Mulan. We decided to go to bed halfway through the movie.
FRIDAY JOGGING:
It was the usual crowd, minus Charm.
After jogging, we played dodge ball with Ayne’s boys. You’d probably find it really corny and all, but I did enjoy it. It reminds me of Put Your Records On music video by Corinne Bailey Rae, wherein girls were out there in the sun (’cause it’s summer), riding bikes, picking flowers, and “double dutch on the concrete”, not caring what they look like. Ahhh, memories of childhood. Not that Ayne’s boys looked like kids. They’re all college boys, by the way.
Sun blazed and burned our skin, so we had to go home. I just changed my clothes and went to Ria’s to hang out with my friends. We had breakfast with Ria’s family.
Experiencing having a lot of free time was fun. I missed the times that I was broke, but home all day, relaxing.
That’s what we exactly did at Ria’s house. We just lazed around, eating the snacks their maid was serving us, doing GIRL TALK (Lloyd was included), playing piano and teasing each other.
Tonet joked that she sabotaged me during my great piano riff because she knew that I have a crush on her “sweetheart”. I told her that I used a blade in her guitar strings, but didn’t completely cut it so that they’ll snap during her great guitar solo. They all looked at me, and I could see that they were all hoping that I’d burst out laughing and saying that I was kidding, but I didn’t, though I really was joking.
The tension was so thick that you can cut it with a knife, so I finally announced that I was joking. Good thing, they still found the joke funny. From then on, Tonet and I started joking about how we shared everything together, like snacks, pillow, chair, couch and of course, Rjo.
“Lagi naman tayong share eh,” we tell each other everytime we share something.
We all went home around four o’clock pm. I cleaned up my room and tidied up the house a bit and wrote in my devotional journal. Kash called, and we talked over the phone about this mysterious person who’s texting me boring stuff but admitted that he has a crush on me (though I didn’t think it was possible since he doesn’t even know my name) until we both fell asleep.
Tell you about it: I got the text like a month ago. It was just a simple, “Hi, how are you text,” so I didn’t really pay attention to that. It could’ve been some ugly and desperate guys looking out for girlfriends through text because they can’t manage to find a girlfriend in real life. I deleted the text and didn’t even save the number.
Then I got the text again when I went to women’s encounter to see my mother (she’s one of the guides) at the church after work. I stayed for a bit after seeing her to teach Kakay some French, Spanish and Italian phrases and grammar rules. I asked the mysterious texter who he was, but he refused to tell me. Probably, that person knows a lot about me because he’s scared that I’d make fun of him. Since I was haggardly fresh from work, I went home to sleep and forgot all about it.
When I woke up, there’s another text again. I thought I’d scare the person off, if I show my true colors through text, so I tried to be polite. I politely asked, “Who’s this please?” That’s when he told me that’s his name’s Jay and he has a crush on me. Still playing all nice and polite, I asked him if he’s from work (I know someone named Jay from work), and he replied, “Not really.”
“Are you a neighbor?” I still asked, though it won’t be likely for him to be OUR neighbor. I know all the neighbors, and they’re out of my league (Mark used to be in my league, but we’re best friends now). It could be Jaron, Mika’s brother, but I’m way too old to be his type.
“Nope. Andito lang ako sa tabi tabi.” That scared me. He probably sees me a lot.
“Yikes, you’re scaring me.” I replied.
“I’m not a creepy stalker, don’t get me wrong.” He explained.
“So why did you text?”
“Nothing. Just thought I’d like to tell you that I have a crush on you.”
“Oh, thank you. That’s very nice of you. Where did you get my number?”
“I have my ways…”
I so hate this! Half of me wanted to know who the mysterious texter is, but the other half doesn’t.
PROS:
1.) He could be THE ONE.
2.) He could be Chris (I’m starting to develop a crush on him too)
3.) For a change, there’s someone out there who liked me for me.
CONS:
1.) He could be a desperate loser who wanted a girlfriend so bad and he thought he could try it on me. Ew.
2.) He could be Chris (I’ve seen the guy in his worst)
3.) He could be Janine or someone else who wanted to test me if I’m easy-to-get.
I disregarded all the pros and the cons. I simply became curious who he was.
“Are you shy? I will not make fun of you, I promise.” I told him.
“We’ll see…” He replied.
I didn’t know what to say to him anymore. I already tried diplomacy and kindness, but it didn’t work. I’d like to use blackmail, but I was scared that if I do, the texter would turn out to be Mi Jan or Des.
I think I told Jem and Kakay about it. Well, I wasn’t planning to, but they were there, reading the text with me (they think my phone is a public property), I let them know about it. It wasn’t a big deal, anyway Plus they’re like the expert on the subject matter of flirting through text, so I figured they could help me figure him out. We all thought it’s Janine youngest bro, Jay jay.
Jay’s a nice guy and all, but he’s still a kid. It can’t be him.
I didn’t want to stress myself out because of that annoying anonymous texter, so I replied, “Ah, okay.” Which became his last reply, too. I tried to forget about what happened because I need to concentrate for the band practice.
After band practice, I got another text from him, thanking me for replying to all his messages and spending some time with him. Ew. It wasn’t like I spent an hour texting him. We just exchanged few texts, approximately up to ten texts, and I got bored. I thought it will all stop there, but it didn’t.
Then he texted the next day, around ten o’clock in the evening, while I was with my friends, watching a basketball game. That’s the first time I told Kash about it, and Jayne overheard, and asked what we’re talking about, so I told her too. I think I showed them the text.
“Hi! How’s your day?”
To which I didn’t reply.
Kash reacted the way she supposed to. You know, all giggly and squealy. She’s curious to know who the texter was too, but the possibilities are too many.
Come Saturday, people started to notice that I was losing weight. I wasn’t on a diet yet, so it’s either the dark skin that I get from staying out in the sun that gave the slimming illusion or jogging slash dodge ball worked out for me. Everywhere I go, people were like, “Wow, you lost weight!”
I went to the Encounter Saturday evening. The bishop saw me and said, “payat ka na kapatid…” Awesome!
